It’s not at all difficult to even think about what I was doing at this time four years ago. I sat looking at him in awe. I felt my heart as full as I ever thought possible. Touching his hair and small body and feeling his tiny breath on me. I kept thinking is this real? Can this really be happening?
I had that feeling of fear, pride, love and worry all wrapped up in one. How do I know if I’d be good enough to fill this position? How will I know what he needs? Will I do the right thing? I was so scared. I became protective in away I always fthought I would but never expected the truth behind it. Looking at him, holding him ...I felt … Right.
This little person made me different. He made me calm, he made my heart full. He made me important. My life had changed forever and I thank him. He made me Mom. I evolved into a Mother.
Through these short four years I’ve gotten to watch him grow and change. It’s been amazing watching him learn and discover his surroundings and himself. Watching that light come on when he’s discovered he can do it. Now at four he’s becoming a boy not a little boy not a toddler not a baby. He’s changing and growing towards his own real personality. I’m watching it. I am watching his future self unfold. It’s amazing. It’s a privilege.
Today at 12:43am I found myself wondering the halls to go to him. It was then just four years ago I started my Love Affair. Today we celebrate Johnpaul. Happy Birthday My Love, Happy Birthday Johnpaul!!
I'm a person who is highly devoted to my Husband John, my three sons Johnpaul, Nathaniel & Christian.
These four people are my Reason.
My Family, my Friends & God who I am in debt to, they have made me into who I am today. Thank you for the strength.
I am a person who actually likes to work, currently my occupation is MOM. Which also happens to be the hardest yet most rewarding job I've ever had, and believe me I've had a lot of different jobs. :o)
I have a pretty strong personality. I get told this a lot.
I'm supposing this is in fact a good thing. If not sorry.
I enjoy meeting new people and discovering new
friends. I am a person who to my best ability tries to be very honest, forgiving and respectful. I am not perfect and do not expect others to be.
**I only have a few pet peeves and the main one is people trying to act like they are better than any one else.
If you act like this GO AWAY......
Born March 29th 2006 He's my Master Negotiator and Helper
This little man is my baby in training. He gave me the greatest honor of changing my life and title forever. He made me Mom. He made me important.
It has been a short four years that have blurred past of sword fights, super heroes and laughs.
Johnpaul is a Big Brother ask any one he doesn't take his title lightly.
One of my most favorite of many amazing attributes of Johnpaul is his idea of Honor Love and Family. He is a awesome little boy. I look forward in watching him grow.
My Big & Naughty Nathaniel Jacob
Born November 21st 2007 He's my Determined Problem Solver
This guy was worry from within the whom. At week 15 I started to bleed. We were loosing him. It was that day this sweet one even before breathing air taught me one of my most precious life lessons.. patience.
Before I had little but while pregnant with him I was on strict bed rest for 172 days. I was more than worth it.
My image of him was he was the most Determined person.. boy was I right. He will because of this be anything he wants. Greatness is in his future.
Nathaniel is loving, sweet and considerate. He can melt your worst day with his smile.
My sweet baby Christian Michael
Born September 10th 2009 He is my Big Snuggler
This little love. He's my last but in no where my least. He was not planned but was very welcome. He was an Anniversary Gift the best kind ever. Christian doesn't talk yet or walk but I can already tell he's a big thinker.
He is always watching. I can't wait to see how his personality unfolds... but at the same time hope he takes his sweet time. He is my baby, my last and I'd like to keep him sdmall for a bit ;o)