The trials of my life is getting to me. It is... I am completely saturated with the woes of my Mother combined with the normal wear and tear of my little Family, friends, acquaintances and it is leaving torn at the seams. I have nothing left for myself.... It is effecting the way I handle things in my day to day life. How I am with my kids. They deserve a whole Mommy not this cheap impostor they are getting right now. They are happy though they get what they need want .. so life is good. They do deserve the real thing though.
But....
What do you do when you need to re set recharge or what ever.. and can't?? It's not like I can leave to have a quiet walk by myself just to let my brain get off of pause. It's just not possible. Every corner of my life right now is a reminder of the chaotic mess it's become. Every where I turn I'm reminded that I need to resort well... EVERYTHING.
So now what? Do I should I close all the windows and lock all the doors?? Julie can't come out and play today... she's not feeling Well....?
I fear just another brick on my wobbly foundation will bring the whole thing down around me.
Ever feel like this?? What to do ... what to do??
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Oh Sweet Lady, I totally understand this. Actually I am feeling that way myself lately.
ReplyDeleteMy body keeps telling me that I need to "re-group and re-energize" and I keep looking for the time but I am NEVER alone. In order to get any time for me I have to wait till everyone has gone to bed and by then, I am just to tired to even try.
I keep telling myself "Just hang in there, that break is just around the corner" and its working so far but eventually I am going to have to find that time. Where? I have no idea right now!!!!!
I know that you'll find a way to manange it and trust me, if you have to be the Julie that locks herself at home and says "Sorry I can't come out and play I need a break" people will understand!!!!!!
Love to you and the boys lady!!!!