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Sunday, September 26, 2010

What do you do?

What do you do when there is nothing you can say...?
Nothing you can do???
Nothing you haven't already done, said... or tried to do??? 
When you seem to be at the end of the rope... end of the rope and practically out of hope??

Nothing makes a difference.
I am now resorted to the power of prayer.
It is known by few what my plight is. What has been happening. 
I try to go on with my day, smile intact... trying to go on. With this mental image in my mind. 
The fear is very real and approaching faster each day.

My fears are becoming reality. 
What do you do when every thing you say to someone, do and plead with them makes NO difference??? 
What do you do when your tears seem at the time to make an impact only to prove to mean nothing??
What do you do to make your fears be known to your loved one only to repeat it over and over??

I've tried to reason.
To explain, to get MAD! 
To scream, cry, give ultimatums. 
Good Cop Bad cop.
And still.... 

The only thing that HAS changed is her condition is quickening. She is running out of time. I can feel it. 
I am scared. I feel powerless. 
I can't imagine a day with out her. A world a life.
She is my friend my mentor 
my Mother.

God please give us hope.

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