Our First School Field Trip

Yesterday We went on Johnpauls very first school field trip. Which in my career as Mom made it mine also. John stayed home and went along. It was a fun idea to get out and do something new all together. As we set out on our trip we were late. Now you know how that flavors it?? (If your someone who minds being late)

I felt frantic till honestly John and I started noticing the directions on the net said 35 min and we seemed to be further and further out here. Now 45 min down the way and what seemed a whole lot longer. The tension breaker happened when John said "Holy Crap! Are we in Oregon yet??!" Seriously! I thought we'd never get there.
But we did.

Here are a few pictures from the day.

Brotherly Love

Christian Rode his 1st Horse

The Guys Rode their 1st Horse too!

Johnpaul 

Nathaniel

Johnpaul with his BF Christopher

Christian picked a pumpkin

Moooooo!

After that we went out to Lunch at Dave's Famous BBQ Yummy!!!

Good Day.

I Feel like hiding

I have come to the conclusion that I am more stressed, disorganized, pressured, worried, wound up, tense, heart ached and worn out than I have ever been in my life these days.

The trials of my life is getting to me. It is... I am completely saturated with the woes of my Mother combined with the normal wear and tear of my little Family, friends, acquaintances and it is leaving torn at the seams. I have nothing left for myself.... It is effecting the way I handle things in my day to day life. How I am with my kids. They deserve a whole Mommy not this cheap impostor they are getting right now. They are happy though they get what they need want .. so life is good. They do deserve the real thing though.

But....

What do you do when you need to re set recharge or what ever.. and can't?? It's not like I can leave to have a quiet walk by myself just to let my brain get off of pause. It's just not possible. Every corner of my life right now is a reminder of the chaotic mess it's become. Every where I turn I'm reminded that I need to resort well... EVERYTHING.

So now what? Do I should I close all the windows and lock all the doors?? Julie can't come out and play today... she's not feeling Well....?
I fear just another brick on my wobbly foundation will bring the whole thing down around me.
Ever feel like this?? What to do ... what to do??




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1. Answer the question "If I had the chance to go back and change one thing in my life, would I, and what would it be?
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If I had the chance to go back and change one thing in my life, would I?  And, what would it be?

To answer this... Yes. I would change a lot of things but I have to choose one. It would most defiantly be that I would try a WHOLE lot harder at school. Mainly at High School. See my high school Shorecrest High in the school district of Shoreline WA was one of the very first if not the first to get a computer lab. I had opportunity to go and learn computers but 'chose' not to simply based on this dumb belief... Get this... I thought that computers were only a FAD. That they would fade. So there fore I didn't need to take classes. Here I had the chance to learn right away and maybe be a head of the game. Well understand a whole lot more and no... I felt there was no need. I was just too cool for school. Not. Oh well. So now most elementary kids can navigate through the computer world a whole lot easier than I but I chalk it up to I was Generation X and they are the Computer Generation right.... Or should I just keep telling my self that? ;o)

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